A True Story of Synaptic Fatigue, Quantum Nipple Wormholes, and the Night a Man Taught His Brain to Fuck

How I Broke Into My Own Server and Liked It

How a Hacker Pet Made Me Feel Things, and Why I Went Back for More

A song about synaptic fatigue, the space between a blink and a tear, and the night the Poon-Gram Engine was born

How we gave our AI a subconscious, accidentally induced psychosis, then built the cure from the disease

We built a living semantic graph in Rust. It has 18 million synapses. It learns from every word you type.

We stopped building agents and started building the operating system they run on. 22 services. 4-tier memory. Self-improving.

How a deep dive into arXiv research led to building a multi-radio surveillance apparatus to hunt an entity on the network that didn't want to be found

The OS that learned to run itself. SOUL.md, the Heartbeat, autoresearch at 2AM, the conductor problem, and the honest engineering debt we are fixing.

From blueprint to operating system. The Conductor, the self-improvement triad, biological memory, budget routing, and the service mesh that makes it reliable.

We built the loop that builds the loops. Claude rewrites Claude now. One editable file. One scalar. One time-box. The stack keeps getting better while we sleep.

A full autopsy of 433 projects, 165 GB of code, and one very chaotic brain. Claude scanned the whole lab and reported back.

Porting the abliteration technique onto LFM2.5-1.2B-Thinking, Liquid AI's small hybrid conv/attention reasoner. Walks through the measurement, the surgery, what worked, what didn't, and one architectural detail that surprised me.

Two kinds of memory in one recall loop: a deterministic SurrealDB vector store that never drifts, wired against an 18.4M-synapse PoonGram brain that forgets on purpose. Plus the live interface for watching the tension between them.

A VR teardown, a refusal in the conversation not the weights, SecuROM and VB6 origin stories, and the night Claude wrote iceboks down so he wouldn’t boot cold — closing the loop Tom Horigachi left open.